Today we're getting a new internet connection installed which will give us more speed and I can't wait.
I forgot to do Tina's plank challenge on Wednesday, boo. I will do it today. On Monday I managed to do a 60 sec. elbow plank, woo hoo!!
But there's something else on my mind right now: there are about 10-12 people who do specifically what I do in Toronto (work-wise) and I know 8-10 of them personally. I'm happy when we all have work, which has been challenging recently because the industry has been slow, but right now I'm finding out some of them are getting gigs in companies where I have been working hard to get in. I'm sure they've been working just as hard to get the job, and really it's nice that some of them get work, but I can't help but feel depressed about it all. I know it's not the case, but it's like I am no good at it anymore. It's like I'm completely out of the loop now and it sucks. there. I said it :)
I guess that's what I get for being a woman, a mom to a young child, in an industry where there are 8 gigs for 12 people. sigh. I gave my 'spot' away when I went on mat leave. :(
Friday, November 2, 2012
Friday, October 26, 2012
Tina's Plank Challenge - Week 1 complete!
About Tina's Plank Challenge: read this for details.
So on Monday I did 30 seconds of the plank. Yup I could not hold any longer! :P
Wednesday I attempted the 8 minute plank/core workout that she posted and I was successful at doing an abbreviated version as follows:
30 seconds of elbow plank
3 up/down planks
30 seconds straight arm plank
2 up/down planks (other side)
rest (oh, yeah, that was nice :)
20 plank knee crunches (for some reason that wasn't to hard for me...)
and that's it.
I didn't repeat it as she suggested, I was just spent!
And today, I beat monday's time: I did a 45 seconds plank!
The plank is about the only kind of exercise I can do right now, as I have a mysterious knee injury that has been bothering me since last wednesday. I have trouble bending it... so it's nice.
I can really feel my belly muscles, they are sore - a good kind of sore though:)
I like this challenge, short and sweet - just what this mama needs! :)
So on Monday I did 30 seconds of the plank. Yup I could not hold any longer! :P
Wednesday I attempted the 8 minute plank/core workout that she posted and I was successful at doing an abbreviated version as follows:
30 seconds of elbow plank
3 up/down planks
30 seconds straight arm plank
2 up/down planks (other side)
rest (oh, yeah, that was nice :)
20 plank knee crunches (for some reason that wasn't to hard for me...)
and that's it.
I didn't repeat it as she suggested, I was just spent!
And today, I beat monday's time: I did a 45 seconds plank!
The plank is about the only kind of exercise I can do right now, as I have a mysterious knee injury that has been bothering me since last wednesday. I have trouble bending it... so it's nice.
I can really feel my belly muscles, they are sore - a good kind of sore though:)
I like this challenge, short and sweet - just what this mama needs! :)
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Puzzled
I feel so confused these days.
I have been outside of my 'industry' since january, working in something I had been meaning to try for a very long time. Let's just say that now I get paid to more or less walk all day! I don't want to say more because, again, I prefer to keep my work life separate from my personal life... Aka I don't want work people to read my blog...
It's very different from the high stress creative job I had before (I worked on various TV and film productions as an editor.) But is it better? Not sure. The only thing that is better right now is the job security I get - as an editor you are constantly working towards making sure you get called again for up-coming productions, you rarely work more than 6 months to a year on the same project, so it's like constantly looking for a job. You usually get paid by the week, no matter how much over the 8 hours a day you work. If there's a big delivery coming, you work until it's ready. If it takes you until after 2am because you have to wait for other departments to give you material, you have to stay. You're in charge of your department, the whole production ultimately comes together through your hands, so it makes sense...
I worked for 12 years non-stop to build my career (I like tosay whine that in those 12 years I have had a total of 6 weeks off) I felt lucky that I was working so much, so I kept going. But my stress was up there, constantly, all that time. I liked the creative aspect of that job, but constantly doubted my abilities. Some projects I've worked on I am proud of and had a blast doing, others were a bit less inspiring, but had promising outcomes: the potential for more work afterwards.
Then I had a baby.
The thought of going back to work in the industry was so scary to me. I felt like the level of commitment to the work that is needed to do the job, I just couldn't bring to the table anymore. I wanted to put in my 8 hours and go home. And preferably on the same schedule every day.
So I gave this other opportunity a try - saying no to some editing work, letting go of some networking 'keeping-in-touch' work... My was that tough. But this new job promised more or less 8 hours, mostly day time... a uniform and a no prep work 'look' aka hair in a pony tail, hurray for no daily hairtorture straightening!
But it's not a permanent position, and I am on call covering for people who go on vacation, so I don't work all the time...
In between working weeks I have been trying to get back to editing. And...
I have been unsuccessful.
Wow. I have not been out of work for 12 years, yet I have not been able to find work since January. I have been to a few interviews, sent out hundreds of applications and resumes, let everybody in my small network of contacts know that I am looking for work... Nothing.
Now I am just puzzled. Am I any good? Is the industry just slow these days? Is it time I develop my own stuff? I am not inspired, I don't know what to do.
I used to come here and talk about my work towards becoming healthier, but right now I don't know how I can go back to that. Go back to that place where I could focus on eating right and exercising (I do walk for 4-6 hours everyday after all, so I'm not too worried in that sense... :)
I don't think I'm the same person anymore. I have trouble figuring out who I am now. I almost feel at times like I am letting go of things I worked hard to get even though I have no real plan, and that's scary.
or maybe it's just the leaves changing color and a bad case of pms? :)
But I do miss my blogging days, and the lovely ladies from the blogging community... I hope you are all well!!
And now, here's a few instagram shots of my beautiful baby L who's not really a baby anymore. I love him to bits. I'm 'cinemarie' on instagram too...
I have been outside of my 'industry' since january, working in something I had been meaning to try for a very long time. Let's just say that now I get paid to more or less walk all day! I don't want to say more because, again, I prefer to keep my work life separate from my personal life... Aka I don't want work people to read my blog...
It's very different from the high stress creative job I had before (I worked on various TV and film productions as an editor.) But is it better? Not sure. The only thing that is better right now is the job security I get - as an editor you are constantly working towards making sure you get called again for up-coming productions, you rarely work more than 6 months to a year on the same project, so it's like constantly looking for a job. You usually get paid by the week, no matter how much over the 8 hours a day you work. If there's a big delivery coming, you work until it's ready. If it takes you until after 2am because you have to wait for other departments to give you material, you have to stay. You're in charge of your department, the whole production ultimately comes together through your hands, so it makes sense...
I worked for 12 years non-stop to build my career (I like to
Then I had a baby.
The thought of going back to work in the industry was so scary to me. I felt like the level of commitment to the work that is needed to do the job, I just couldn't bring to the table anymore. I wanted to put in my 8 hours and go home. And preferably on the same schedule every day.
So I gave this other opportunity a try - saying no to some editing work, letting go of some networking 'keeping-in-touch' work... My was that tough. But this new job promised more or less 8 hours, mostly day time... a uniform and a no prep work 'look' aka hair in a pony tail, hurray for no daily hair
But it's not a permanent position, and I am on call covering for people who go on vacation, so I don't work all the time...
In between working weeks I have been trying to get back to editing. And...
I have been unsuccessful.
Wow. I have not been out of work for 12 years, yet I have not been able to find work since January. I have been to a few interviews, sent out hundreds of applications and resumes, let everybody in my small network of contacts know that I am looking for work... Nothing.
Now I am just puzzled. Am I any good? Is the industry just slow these days? Is it time I develop my own stuff? I am not inspired, I don't know what to do.
I used to come here and talk about my work towards becoming healthier, but right now I don't know how I can go back to that. Go back to that place where I could focus on eating right and exercising (I do walk for 4-6 hours everyday after all, so I'm not too worried in that sense... :)
I don't think I'm the same person anymore. I have trouble figuring out who I am now. I almost feel at times like I am letting go of things I worked hard to get even though I have no real plan, and that's scary.
or maybe it's just the leaves changing color and a bad case of pms? :)
But I do miss my blogging days, and the lovely ladies from the blogging community... I hope you are all well!!
And now, here's a few instagram shots of my beautiful baby L who's not really a baby anymore. I love him to bits. I'm 'cinemarie' on instagram too...
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
For all it's worth...
I've done a couple of days worth of Tina's plank challenge.
It was, you know, challenging...
L is 25 months old now.
We're moving soon.
I've changed jobs/industry (temporarily... or not... gotta figure this out)
Lots more personal things have happened... things are certainly changing a lot over here...
How have you all been? :)
It was, you know, challenging...
L is 25 months old now.
We're moving soon.
I've changed jobs/industry (temporarily... or not... gotta figure this out)
Lots more personal things have happened... things are certainly changing a lot over here...
How have you all been? :)
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Sunday, October 9, 2011
One Year
On Sept 24th, Baby L turned One Year Old!!! :)
I have not given up on blogging, I just have to find the time.
I gave up pressuring myself to make time for the computer, for blogging... it'll come naturally when I start again, it won't be 'forced'...
Until then, here are a few shots of Baby L at 1.
He's already been to a TFC Soccer game :)
Daycare is going better than I could've ever imagined. He LOVES it there. I'm back to work at a new place, temporarily anyways. I have found a small project that will keep me busy for another 2 weeks (it was a total of 6 weeks...) It's a very quiet time in my industry right now.
It's going to take me a while to figure out how to balance work and family life - I know a ton of ladies have done it before me - I just have to figure out how to do it myself, in a way that works for my family...
One day at a time, right?! :)
I hope you are all doing well!!!!!!
Friday, July 1, 2011
The Pride Run
I am very sad to announce that I will have to skip running the 'Pride Run' this year :(
I was so excited to get a chance to do it again - but I won't be able to.
Zut Alors!
in 2012 though - I will be there and I will finally complete that race!!!!
I will be thinking of Mouse and the Go Skirt team in the morning - sending good vibes their way :)
I was so excited to get a chance to do it again - but I won't be able to.
Zut Alors!
in 2012 though - I will be there and I will finally complete that race!!!!
I will be thinking of Mouse and the Go Skirt team in the morning - sending good vibes their way :)
Thursday, June 2, 2011
June, The Month of Many Goals...
So things are going ok/well with sleep training - we're progressing, but allergies and eczema are making this a bit tougher and longer than it should be... we'll figure out what makes the little man itchy and hopefully everything will progress better...
That being said, I am now able to DO things when nap time arrives - not for all naps but for some naps!! We don't have a consistent nap schedule at all yet, but at least we have naps, and at least I'm not stuck with a baby on my lap all day! :) And you know what, I feel like he must be so much more comfortable sleeping in his bed and not all crooked on the nursing pillow on mommy's lap, no?!
Lots of things on my mind these days, lots of things to do:
Next week, we have a meeting at a good day care that may have a spot open for when my maternity leave ends. We might take a 2 day spot for the month of July, just so we are in for the full time. I might not take the baby to day care on all those days, but I figure I can slowly get him and I used to the whole thing that way...
Once we have that spot secured, I need to work on several things:
-Accepting the fact that I am returning to work and that my baby will spend most of his awake time away from me :(
-Find work. There are a few things in the air, but nothing is 'for sure'. Still looking...Anyone hiring? :)
-Get L to sleep through the night.
-Get L on a consistent nap and feeding schedule.
-Organize and figure out how I can continue breastfeeding while at work/day care.
-Get a flipping hair cut (Last time was Jan 2nd 2010 - my hair is a disaster!:)
-Go to the doctor's office (also hapening next week...) to figure out what's bothering me - I am experiencing pain that makes me think I might have this problem. It feels terrible when I run! :(
-Get lunch with a former colleague - the one lunch I've been meaning to have for about 8 months!
-Host 'brunch' for a few other former colleagues with whom I 'get together' every 6 months or so...
If I get the ok that I can run through the pain from my doctor, I want to run more!
And I have to get my head around eating well and getting healthier again. Would you like some numbers? Here are some:
NOV 2009 - Happy wedding day weight: 150
DEC 2009 - Holiday weight gain and official pre-pregnancy weight: 157 (+7)
SEPT 2010 - Just before giving birth weight: 222! (+72!)
NOV 2010 - 2 months postpartum: 190 (+40)
JUNE 2011 - Now - 8 months (and a bit...) postpartum - 165 (+15)
so yeah, at this point I have lost 57 lbs... and I am only 8 lbs away from my official pre-pregnancy weight, but let's face it, I'm 15+ pounds overweight... and my body is certainly not as, um, tight as it used to be... Like the midwives were saying, this is 'the new normal' I guess... ?!
I feel like I'm all over the place in this post. I feel like my life is all over the place - need to work on that too...
meh. *sigh*
here I come June!
That being said, I am now able to DO things when nap time arrives - not for all naps but for some naps!! We don't have a consistent nap schedule at all yet, but at least we have naps, and at least I'm not stuck with a baby on my lap all day! :) And you know what, I feel like he must be so much more comfortable sleeping in his bed and not all crooked on the nursing pillow on mommy's lap, no?!
Lots of things on my mind these days, lots of things to do:
Next week, we have a meeting at a good day care that may have a spot open for when my maternity leave ends. We might take a 2 day spot for the month of July, just so we are in for the full time. I might not take the baby to day care on all those days, but I figure I can slowly get him and I used to the whole thing that way...
Once we have that spot secured, I need to work on several things:
-Accepting the fact that I am returning to work and that my baby will spend most of his awake time away from me :(
-Find work. There are a few things in the air, but nothing is 'for sure'. Still looking...Anyone hiring? :)
-Get L to sleep through the night.
-Get L on a consistent nap and feeding schedule.
-Organize and figure out how I can continue breastfeeding while at work/day care.
-Get a flipping hair cut (Last time was Jan 2nd 2010 - my hair is a disaster!:)
-Go to the doctor's office (also hapening next week...) to figure out what's bothering me - I am experiencing pain that makes me think I might have this problem. It feels terrible when I run! :(
-Get lunch with a former colleague - the one lunch I've been meaning to have for about 8 months!
-Host 'brunch' for a few other former colleagues with whom I 'get together' every 6 months or so...
If I get the ok that I can run through the pain from my doctor, I want to run more!
And I have to get my head around eating well and getting healthier again. Would you like some numbers? Here are some:
NOV 2009 - Happy wedding day weight: 150
DEC 2009 - Holiday weight gain and official pre-pregnancy weight: 157 (+7)
SEPT 2010 - Just before giving birth weight: 222! (+72!)
NOV 2010 - 2 months postpartum: 190 (+40)
JUNE 2011 - Now - 8 months (and a bit...) postpartum - 165 (+15)
so yeah, at this point I have lost 57 lbs... and I am only 8 lbs away from my official pre-pregnancy weight, but let's face it, I'm 15+ pounds overweight... and my body is certainly not as, um, tight as it used to be... Like the midwives were saying, this is 'the new normal' I guess... ?!
I feel like I'm all over the place in this post. I feel like my life is all over the place - need to work on that too...
meh. *sigh*
here I come June!
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